Bittersweet Life...

Friday, January 21, 2005

i cried last night. coz there was a lizard in my room and he wouldnt put in effort to look for it and kill it. my room is the onli place for me to wind down.. read a book and chill to the radio. now, a single lizard can make me feel so insecure. he said i was talking rubbish when i told him i saw lizard. i hated it. then i cried. am i crazy? crying coz the lizard is still luriking ard somewhere in my room? yeah... i might sound insane to u, but lizards are juz my phobia. i really which he could understand it. im dumd. im insane. im a 'coward'. i slept in my bro's room yesterday.

i juz dun understand y he cant see my pt of view. ppl have phobias. im might be behaving like a lil kid, scared of a lil lizard. but i cant stand him, giving his useless and oh-so-wise words abt growing up and taking respondsibilty. he cant see his own mistakes. everytime i'd try to be nice to him, he'd be hostile. he's asking for it. i've never loved him. i dun love him. i shall never will.

Smashed into pieces at 1/21/2005 05:35:00 PM